Monday, August 21

what a weekend

Wow, this has been a hard weekend. Firstly, on Friday, Mat went to use his debit card to buy me lunch, and it was declined. I called the bank and they told me we were showing a balance of -$650.00 (yes, that's negative six hundred fifty some dollars) We later found out that somehow, some bad people in California got my debit card number and pin number and decided to empty out our checking account. How nice of them, huh? Everyone at the bank kept asking me when I lost my card.... it was still in my wallet. So, that's interesting. Maddening, really. Just another thing to worry about, on top of moving and all that. I'm really excited for when we start opening things up in Colorado and we find out that those bad people have more than just my debit card number, like my SSN or something like that..... Wahoo for that! It's still being resolved, slowly but surely. Hopefully soon we'll have all that money back and those bad people will get in trouble. I know the first scenario is more likely than the second, but we can hope, huh?!?
Next comes Saturday night. We went to dinner with Mat's mom and sister to their pastors house with some other friends. It was fun, but we had to say goodbye to Katie, Mat's sister, as she left for college. I know it's ok, because we aren't going to be here much longer anyway, but it was still hard. I wish I would have taken advantage of us living so close to get to know her better. But, we have e-mail and cell phones, so we'll keep in touch. And she's going to try and come down for our going away party, so it'd be nice to see her again before we go. It's going to be so good for her to get out of her comfort zone and meet new people, do new things, all the experiences that come along with college. I'm so very excited for her, it was just the beginning of saying goodbye that made it tough. But, she has the emotions of her father and brother...a couple hugs and a good bye and that was that. And an I love you, of course. It's just bizarre for me, the uber-emotional one, to see someone just say "good-bye, I love you" and that's it. Oh well, I know the thoughts are back there.. And we are very very excited for her to, like I said, get out of her shell a little bit. She's so very quiet, it'll be good for her to have to make new friends and get out of her warm comfort zone. I'll have to call her tonite and see how her first couple days have gone... :)
Then came Sunday. We went to church, it was good. I'm going to miss our church, and we just found it!!! We had dinner at Grandpa and Grandma's house, and we were a little bit early, so we decided to go say goodbye to my Great-Grandma Hannah. I had talked to Grandma Pat about it, if it was a good idea or not, and she thought it would be. It was so hard. My Great-Grandma is 94 years old. She's healthy, has a good heart and lungs and all that, but her body is very frail, her joints and bones are wearing down, and her mind is really going. She could hardly remember who we were, and she was so confused. It was so hard to see her like that, having to think of things to ask her, stuff like that. I tried to ask her if she liked living there (at the Retirement Home) and it was clearly the wrong question to ask. She wants to go home, that's all she says. She wants to be in Heaven. She knows what her life was, and what it is now, and it makes her so sad. She's longing to be Home with Jesus, and after yesterday, I long for that day for her too. She gets so confused. She couldn't remember where we lived, and then we told her we had to go to lunch, and she thought she was supposed to come, she didn't know why she couldn't come, didn't know where we were going..... It was so hard. I cried and cried and cried in the car. It was tough to see my grandma like that, she's always been so fun and talkative and everything. It was a tough day. But, on the flip side, I'm so glad I went to see her. Now, when she does go home to Jesus, it might not be as sad for me, seeing how her life is now. And, it would have been one of those things I would have always regretted, had I not gone and said goodbye one last time. It was just a tough emotional day.
Then we have Monday, today. Actually, just this afternoon. This morning was good, Love INC had a pizza party for me. It was fun. This afternoon, my mom called to give me an update on my Grandma Fran (my dad's mom) Her and my Grandpa were in Seattle visiting Grandma's sister when she got really bad stomach pains (my grandma that is) so she went to the hospital were they thought it was either her gall bladder (fun times there!) or her pancreas. Well, my mom called today and they found a tumor in (or near, I can't remember) her pancreas and it doesn't look good. Unfortunately, that's all the details I have. My aunt called my mom and that's all she said. So, as of right now, I have no idea what's going on, what the next step is, anything. Needless to say, I'm freaking out. But, I do know that everything is in God's hands. I know that, it's just hard to not be emotional, when it's already been a stressful and emotional weekend, with this on top of it all makes it hard. I don't even know how to pray......for divine healing, for steady hands of the doctors....for wisdom in the doctors, for calm nerves and peace for my family. It's just a tough situation. Please please please pray for my family, my dad and his siblings, everyone involved. It's bound to be a rough week, please keep us in your prayers. Pray that I start getting some sleep too.... with all this emotional roller coasters I've been on lately, I'm crying all the time. Please pray for peaceful and restful sleep........
What a weekend.... God, be in these situations. Heal Grandma, give our family peace and calm nerves. Give the doctors wisdom. Just use this situation as you will, be here. Amen.

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