i'm a medical marvel

nothing with my health is ever easy. everything is complicated, or a mystery....... case in point.... two years ago, i went to the doctor for my stomach. first, i had heartburn. then, i had an ulcer. then, my gall bladder was removed. then, i still had an ulcer. now, i'm chalking everything up to lactose intolerance. frustrating that we couldn't have figured that out before i had surgery....
now, another medical mystery. my ears have been bothering me for about four or five days. they hurt so badly, feel so full of "stuff", and are so sensitive to loud sounds. ouch. painful. we got over the counter drops, and it hasn't helped. so i go to the doctor today. he looks in my ears, clean as can be. do i have allergies? no. are my lymph nodes swollen or sore? no. am i sick in any other way, sore throat, runny nose, fever? no. he looks at me, crosses his arms, and shakes his head. he doesn't know what is wrong with me.... wow, thanks doc. he gave me a decongestant, and if that doesn't help in a week, i have to go see the ear nose and throat doctor.... that'll be fun. next they'll take out my ears and find out later that we could've solved it with ear drops.... that's just the way things work. mat tells me i'm a medical marvel. that doesn't make me feel any better. hopefully the decongestant will work.....
we went and saw epic movie yesterday. wow, it was funny. funny along the lines of scary movie, not another teen movie, and the other ones.... a type of humor mat and i enjoy. my only criticism is that the movie itself was all of one hour.... that's right, one hour. i feel as though the price of a movie should be directly related to the length of time the movie is. needless to say, i felt a little jipped, but, it was our valentines day, so it was still fun. we ate our weight in brunch at the st. julien. mat had a certificate from when he worked there, so we got all you can eat bruch and all you can drink mimosas for twenty bucks. it was great. crab legs, prime rib, eggs benedict, biscuits and gravy, amazing french toast, it was all so delicious. and so much fun. we just ate and sat and talked and laughed at the people around us (the lady who got up nine times for more.... she had a huge bubble butt, and her and her "companion" kept eating oyster.... and aphrodesiac..... it's hard to get the picture without seeing it, but it was pretty funny) we had such a good day yesterday, just hanging out, relaxed and spending time together. i love my husband!

let the invasion begin.....

"jesus is being lost in a religion bearing His name. people are being lost because they cannot reconcile jesus' assocation with christianity. christianity has become docile, domesticated, civilized. we have forgotten that there is a kingdom of darkness stealing the hopes and dreams and souls of a humanity without God. it is time to hear the barbarian call, to form a barbarian tribe, and to unleash the barbarian revolt. let the invasion begin..."

i'm reading this amazing book by erwin mcmanus. someone with a name like erwin has to bring about greatness. and this book is great. it's really challenging my thinking on christianity and being a follower of christ, and the difference between the two. it is forcing me to change my thoughts on being called to a lifetime of service to God, that it's not comfortable and prettyness and supplying for need and answering prayer the way we want it to be answered... john the baptist prayed to not lose faith and for jesus to save his life, but that wasn't what he had planned....... that it's hard work, life-threatening work, dirty work, amazing work. there's another line in that book, haven't written it down yet, that says something to the effect of "some people make it through the darkest night, and some people wake up in glory." i only hope that we are up for the challenge. this book is really worth checking out.... it's hard to explain exactly what it is doing to my heart, but it is doing some great things. making me think and pray hard about some things. anyone who has read it, help me out here!

"if anyone would come after me, he must deny himself and take up his cross daily and follow me. for whoever want to save his life will lost it, but whoever loses his life for me will save it." luke 9:22-23

it makes me wonder what God is calling me to, and what i'm missing out on by the way i am currently leading my life. he talks about how crazy and insane john the baptist was, and how polite and controlled christians are now. it makes me want to embrace a barbarian way of life, but not knowing where to start. i like being polite, treating people with respect. but i am realizing that i need to care less about what people think of me and care more about my mission in life, telling others about jesus. leading the lost to him. but what does that look like? what does the typical missionary look like, and how exactly can i fit into that mold? what do i have to give up, what will i lose? but more importantly, what will i gain? how will my life be bettered, enriched, by heeding the barbarian call, by following jesus with reckless abandon and going wherever he wants us to go? what will my life be by living less safely, and more dependent on God?

holiday blizzard 2006

mat's truck after the blizzard. he drove home from work at about noon, and this was about eleven the next morning.....

this is my car..... see the glimpse of red? i drove home from work at about three that afternoon, again, this is about eleven the next morning. i made it all the way home, and got stuck in the culdesac..... my car was still all cock-eyed and snow covered when we got home from montana...

this is the picnic table on grandma's deck..... close to the house, so it's not a totally accurate measure, but makes for a good picture

this is my favorite picture. this is looking outside from our bedroom, our room is in the basement, the bottom of the window is about level with the ground. again, this is at about eleven the morning we left for montana. wow, huh?

sorry these are so belated. this is from holiday blizzard 2006 as the newscasters were calling it.... now it's simply blizzard number one..... with blizzard number four on the forecast for thursday. it's great for the farmers, firefighters and skiiers...... but seriously, enough is enough!!

insomniac

oh my flipping word...... november 23rd is the last time i've posted on here..... that's irresponsible and just sad. one of my resolutions, or goals maybe, is to be more dilligent with this, keeping people up to date with the goings-on in boulder, in the smith family (i can't say household, since technically there is more than just smiths in our household......) i'm also going to try and start working harder on my business, thats a huge resolution of mine. with as busy as work will be in the next few months, we'll see when that one happens. but, here's to wishful thinking!
the past few weeks have been so stressful, combining christmas, three (one more on the way) blizzards, a funeral, and still working more than full time........ it's been a crazy few weeks, with a few more to go before things return to normal, but, it'll be good to get some overtime and get a lot done. it was good tho, to see everyone, both at home (for the two days we were there) and here. altho with all the travelling, it was hard to think of it as christmas and all that, seeing as we drove home on christmas day. but, it was, and it was still good to see everyone, both in montana and here. lots of family time, lots of presents, lots of laughs, lots of cold germs given to us by the kidlets, but all in all, a fun couple weeks. stressful, with no end in sight, but lots of fun. i'll post pictures as soon as i get on the right computer. i'm watching mtv and i don't want to get off my butt!!

greys

i love greys anatomy.
i hate how stuck i am on this girly show, but it's so good. it's medical, soap opera, funny, with great music. i love it. you know what i love most about it? it guarantees me an hour with joy every week. she comes over every thursday (except today, she's with family) and we kick mat out and make him play video games (twist his arm, huh?) while we watch greys. it's so great, i love it. and on that note, i want to share some of the other things i am particularly thankful for on a day like today.

~ for cell phones. i was able to talk to my whole family (minus tommy and chloe.....apparently they didn't want to talk to me!) today, all whilst sitting on scott and geri's front step. it was so great, they just passed the phone around and i got to talk to everyone. and on that note, i'm thankful for my family. they have been so supportive of us as we stepped out in this new phase of life, and i love them. they are so great, great at keeping in touch. my mom sends me a little card every so often (sometimes with money in it!) and i just got a thank you card from tommy and chloe the other day..... chloe drew on the envelope and tommy cursive-d a note on the inside. it made me start crying. i just love them and miss them so much!

~ for my husband. while i was crying all night last night because i wanted to go home for thanksgiving but couldn't (it'd mean driving thru the night by myself two nights in a row) and missing my family and wanting to see my sister again, he held me, sat with me while i cried, rubbed my head and my back. he is such a wonderful man, he is my rock, my pillar, my strength in this new, strange place ( i mean strange as in foreign..... mostly...... it's kinda strange as in weird too, tho.......) i don't know what i would do without him. he's my best friend and i love him with my whole heart.

~ for my husbands family..... my family-in-law. we spent the whole day with them today. just scott, geri (uncle, aunt) and the kidlets, jaidyn and carson. it was great. i love spending time with them, getting to know them better, laughing with them, laughing at the kids and their "kid-isms". it was such a great day. i love those people. i love that they are becoming my family, my colorado family. they have welcomed me in with open arms, (they hug me every time they see me!) and my heart is so full because of them.

~ for white wine. and sunshine wheat beer. i have really taken a liking to both of them as of late.

~ for my joy. she really is my joy. she is the best friend i have down here, and i don't know what i would do without her. she makes me laugh every single time we spend time together. i am insanely blessed at how our lives and friendship have come full circle, and don't know what i would do without her.

~ for my mysh. i don't know what i would do without her. even tho we don't get to talk as much as we would like to, she is still so supportive of us as we start this new part of our life. she is my best friend, and will always be. she always holds my hand, and i hold hers. we are always there for eachother, even now that we are 800 miles apart. she blesses my life in ways no one else can, and i am forever greatful for everything she means to me.

~ for the insanely great weather we are having. it's a little blessing to be able to sit outside in just a cardigan and talk to your family on thanksgiving..... it's amazing! :)

~ for black friday? not so much looking forward to work tomorrow.....

~ for mat's grandma, for letting us live with her and not charging us rent and cooking us meals and the countless other things she does for us every day. she's an amazing woman.

~ for the internet as an amazing way to keep in touch with people so far away. it's a blessing (and a curse!) to be able to see my heather's twins, read about reuben and val's thanksgiving, read about karis in thailand....... it's amazing!

~ for all the laughter, love and amazing food we had today. my heart, and stomach, are very full. what a blessed life i have. thank you for being a part of it.

freeze hot

we are watching spanish television, also known as "Telemundo" and on right now is a infomercial for "freeze hot reduce" an icy hot weight loss gel, it works 24 horas per dia, it's pretty funny watching a spanish infomercial. mat really enjoys watching telemundo lately. whenever he takes lunch in the breakroom at work, he gets a spanish lesson from all the housekeepers who work at the hotel. so, now he can understand 10 words per show. it's pretty comical hearing him translate those 10 words for me.... increible means incredible......he's so good. he really enjoys watching spanish wrestling and spanish game shows, especially "vas or no vas" like deal or no deal, but the girls are uglier. that's mat's latest guilty pleasure. mine is "parental control" the MTV dating show where the parents get rid of the hoochie girlfriends and lazy boyfriends and choose someone new for their child to date, and then the current boy/girl friend watch the dates with the parents. it's a pretty good, awkward, swearing time. and there is a girl named constance on there right now!! :)

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life in colorado has been going good. mat's been getting busier and busier at the hotel. he's been given the "15 rooms or less" accounts to work with. he's been sending out contracts and booking rooms for rich peoples birthday parties, christmas parties, etc. he's hoping at the start of the new year to be dealing with the sports teams more, since they are usually 15 rooms or less anyway. i'm hoping he can do that too, it might hook us up with some tickets to basketball, volleyball, baseball, we'll just have to see. i'm hoping he can get tickets to the john legend concert. he and his posse are staying at the julien, i'd love to go see him in concert. it'd be sweet. i'm so greatful for him having a job he loves, even if he does work with all women. he really enjoys hearing about them having to find a new ob/gyn. :) it makes my heart happy to know that he's doing something he loves, and excelling at it. he's beating all the goals they have set for him so far, which is amazing for as limited experience as he has. all in all, life at the st. julien is going well.

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life in colorado for me is going well. i need a new job. mine is driving me crazy. but, we need insurance worse than in need my sanity, so i'll be at borders until january, when mat's insurance will kick in. i just need something that keeps me businer, something that lets me show my strengths, something that pays me better and has better hours, and maybe a place for advancement beyond manager of a bookstore. i love working in a bookstore, but i want something that'll challenge me a little bit more, something that'll be more of a career rather than just a job. and something that pays better so we can afford a house! we went and looked at houses in longmont today. it was ok, we found a couple that were "buyable" but we didn't get to look inside of any of them. but, now we know which ones are definate no's and which ones we want to keep looking at. i just am not sold on the idea of living in longmont. but, if that's where we can afford to live, then we need to go for it. we'll see. probably nothing will happen until the new year, but you never know. i just want our own space. i want our own stuff, our own kitchen, our own bed, silly little stuff like that. but, i really need to work on being more greatful for this chance to live with grandma, to get to know her better, to save up more money for our house, and to make the best decision for a house and our future. time will only tell what the future holds, where we are to find a house, where we will put down our roots, whether in longmont, westminster, northglenn, boulder, we shall see.

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in case you wanted to order "freeze hot reduce" here's the number: 1-800-990-7008

here i am again. sorry it's taken so long to update this silly thing. i always have such hope for my days off, and they go way too fast. today i had high hopes of getting my new drivers license (put off until tomorrow before work), doing a bit of shopping for card making fun-ness, finishing, or at least working on, our thanksgiving cards, finishing laundry, eating lunch..... and so far, all i've accomplished is shopping and getting a little more laundry done. after getting lost in westminister/arvada thanks to my husbands great directions (haha!) the afternoon was pretty close to over. now i'm just killing time waiting for him to get home from work....here he is... so we can venture out to aurora to see my friend crystal and her boy logan and boyfriend chris. i always call boyfriend/husbands "boy"s, so with crystal, i have to specify her boy as in her son and her boy as in her boyfriend. anyway, that's that. it'll be good to see her, as we haven't managed to hang out since she and i moved down here. it'll be good, she's making lasagne. yum.

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so my darling friend joy moved out here from texas a couple weeks ago. it's been so good to see her again. joy and i did our dts together in seattle, and since 2002, we've met, spent 8 months living together, seeing eachother every day, then seeing eachother twice since sept 02 and last month. the last time we saw eachother was at our wedding, two and a half years ago. it is so good to see her and be able to hang out with eachother, knowing that our time is not limited, we don't have to cram all our hanging out and catching up into one night. it's been good to have a casual friendship, one that we can just hang out and relax and not have to be talking and busy. not that we don't talk when we hang out..... you know what i mean. either way, having her here, spending time with her, having a dear friend out here is just so nice, such a blessing. that and she brought me a longhorns shirt so we can cheer for them together....mat really appreciates that! :)
gotta go to aurora for lasagne.

xanadu and fandango

Ok, so get this. the hotel my husband works at has a lot of conference rooms, three names xanadu (xanadu I, II, and III......originality is astounding! haha!) and one named fandango. unfortunately, the paper bag puppets don't live in that particular conference room, i already asked. oh yeah, mat got the job.... did i forget to tell you? he officially got the job on monday, tuesday he went to orientation, wednesday we enjoyed a day off together (doing a whole lot of nothing!) and he started his 8-5:30 today. what a grown up, 8-5:30, monday thru friday.... i don't know how he's going to handle it! haha!

now i can focus on starting my business (yeah, mysh, my business!!) any advice from any fellow entrepreuers (however you spell that!) seriously, i don't know the best place to start.... i need help!!

crusty socks

Wow, moving is such an enjoyable experience, one I want to relive at least once a year......Ha! Having never moved before, this last week has been an interesting, stressful and unpredictable week. It's been interesting to say the least. We got to Boulder last Saturday, and have been staying in a temporary room at Grandma's since today. First, my mom and dad were in our current room, then Mat's uncle and aunt came into town for a couple days. So, we've been living out of suitcases and getting dressed in the garage until today. And what a wonderful and liberating experience it is, hanging up all your clothes and finding new jeans, new pajamas, and your beloved slippers. Mat was very excited to find his slippers and sweatpants, and it's been cold today, so he's wearing both! :) It was a tiring day, unpacking everything, hanging it up, cleaning, etc. So, we are celebrating by ordering Chinese. Actually, Grandma's getting it for us because none of us feel like going to the grocery store! Haha!! I feel like our stay here is more permanent now too, even tho it is only temporary for a few months, it feels like we are living here now instead of just being on a long strange vacation. So, that's good, I feel less nomadic and more "here to stay" Coloradian (however you spell that!) So, the garage at Grandma's is much more spacious now, after our big boxes of clothes are out of the way....... we may be able to get a car in there soon!! :)


We went and found Borders the other day....yesterday actually. I was able to introduce myself to my manager and some of my other future co-workers, so that was nice. To be able to know a few people, and where I even work, before my first day. I'm still a little apprehensive about my first day on Monday, as anyone is on their first day at a new job. I'm a little worried about not knowing anyone, making new friends..... It'll be like the first day at school, although it won't be everyone's first day. I just want to get to know some quality people.... I hope I can. And Sunday we'll go to church with Mat's aunt and uncle, not sure where they go to church. I'm glad tho, we can go with someone we know and not just go not knowing anyone. At least for our first Sunday. It'll be good. I'm just glad to go to church again. Grandma has characterized their church as a "hip-hop" church.... which'll be good for us. Hopefully we can find a church we love as much as Journey!! And then the next week, pending our reaction to Scott & Geri's church, we'll go to Mat's old church, the one he went to when he lived down here first, Northglenn Christian. We'll see how that goes, but at least we have something lined up for a couple weeks. I'm just excited for going to church again!! :) Yay!

So, Mat had an interview at the Westin on Wednesday. We'll see what they have to say. The job he interviewed for was initially an Assistant Supervisor, but in his interview he discovered that the job was now a Supervisor, which he is in no way opposed to!! Of course he'll be a Supervisor!! They said they had another person or two to interview and they'd let him know "in a week or so"...... Mat said he'll probably call them Monday, show some interest, and see what they have to say. That's the lastest on everything. If I think of anything else, I'll just blog later I suppose. Gotta go, Wontons are here!! :)

good news

So, here's something else I forgot to update here. My second to last post, about my terribly long weekend, I have an update. About my grandma. I don't know if God healed her (I like to believe that one!) or if the doctors read the first scan wrong, but there is no tumor!! PTL! There is just a shadowy spot on her pancreas, and she has pancreatitis, which can be controlled with medications. PTL!! Big time Praise the LORD!!! How awesome is our God! Wow! Prayers are answered every day, I know that. It's just amazing to see it happen so quickly (when God's timing matches up with ours.... ) and in such the way that you want to see it answered! God is good....All the Time!!
Other than that huge praise, not a lot new with us. Pricing things for our garage sale, which will be held this Saturday. Really looking forward to that, unloading all our junk on people who "need" it! haha!! Hope we get rid of a lot!! That's all I have to say, just wanted to keep everyone updated. Have a great week, all!!

something cool

Ok, so here's my x-ray from after my surgery. I thought I had lost it..... it's amazing what you find when you are packing and moving!! Haha! So, thought this was kinda cool cuz you can see the plates I have in my head. Titanium, four plates and 24 (or something like that) screws. It is hard to see on the scan, I wished it had scanned better. But, the plates are on the bottom jaws on the outside edges and the upper jaws towards the center (by my nose) and I had braces on when this was taken, thus the, well, braces in the x-ray. Thought it'd be cool to share this, sorry it took me so long! :)

what a weekend

Wow, this has been a hard weekend. Firstly, on Friday, Mat went to use his debit card to buy me lunch, and it was declined. I called the bank and they told me we were showing a balance of -$650.00 (yes, that's negative six hundred fifty some dollars) We later found out that somehow, some bad people in California got my debit card number and pin number and decided to empty out our checking account. How nice of them, huh? Everyone at the bank kept asking me when I lost my card.... it was still in my wallet. So, that's interesting. Maddening, really. Just another thing to worry about, on top of moving and all that. I'm really excited for when we start opening things up in Colorado and we find out that those bad people have more than just my debit card number, like my SSN or something like that..... Wahoo for that! It's still being resolved, slowly but surely. Hopefully soon we'll have all that money back and those bad people will get in trouble. I know the first scenario is more likely than the second, but we can hope, huh?!?
Next comes Saturday night. We went to dinner with Mat's mom and sister to their pastors house with some other friends. It was fun, but we had to say goodbye to Katie, Mat's sister, as she left for college. I know it's ok, because we aren't going to be here much longer anyway, but it was still hard. I wish I would have taken advantage of us living so close to get to know her better. But, we have e-mail and cell phones, so we'll keep in touch. And she's going to try and come down for our going away party, so it'd be nice to see her again before we go. It's going to be so good for her to get out of her comfort zone and meet new people, do new things, all the experiences that come along with college. I'm so very excited for her, it was just the beginning of saying goodbye that made it tough. But, she has the emotions of her father and brother...a couple hugs and a good bye and that was that. And an I love you, of course. It's just bizarre for me, the uber-emotional one, to see someone just say "good-bye, I love you" and that's it. Oh well, I know the thoughts are back there.. And we are very very excited for her to, like I said, get out of her shell a little bit. She's so very quiet, it'll be good for her to have to make new friends and get out of her warm comfort zone. I'll have to call her tonite and see how her first couple days have gone... :)
Then came Sunday. We went to church, it was good. I'm going to miss our church, and we just found it!!! We had dinner at Grandpa and Grandma's house, and we were a little bit early, so we decided to go say goodbye to my Great-Grandma Hannah. I had talked to Grandma Pat about it, if it was a good idea or not, and she thought it would be. It was so hard. My Great-Grandma is 94 years old. She's healthy, has a good heart and lungs and all that, but her body is very frail, her joints and bones are wearing down, and her mind is really going. She could hardly remember who we were, and she was so confused. It was so hard to see her like that, having to think of things to ask her, stuff like that. I tried to ask her if she liked living there (at the Retirement Home) and it was clearly the wrong question to ask. She wants to go home, that's all she says. She wants to be in Heaven. She knows what her life was, and what it is now, and it makes her so sad. She's longing to be Home with Jesus, and after yesterday, I long for that day for her too. She gets so confused. She couldn't remember where we lived, and then we told her we had to go to lunch, and she thought she was supposed to come, she didn't know why she couldn't come, didn't know where we were going..... It was so hard. I cried and cried and cried in the car. It was tough to see my grandma like that, she's always been so fun and talkative and everything. It was a tough day. But, on the flip side, I'm so glad I went to see her. Now, when she does go home to Jesus, it might not be as sad for me, seeing how her life is now. And, it would have been one of those things I would have always regretted, had I not gone and said goodbye one last time. It was just a tough emotional day.
Then we have Monday, today. Actually, just this afternoon. This morning was good, Love INC had a pizza party for me. It was fun. This afternoon, my mom called to give me an update on my Grandma Fran (my dad's mom) Her and my Grandpa were in Seattle visiting Grandma's sister when she got really bad stomach pains (my grandma that is) so she went to the hospital were they thought it was either her gall bladder (fun times there!) or her pancreas. Well, my mom called today and they found a tumor in (or near, I can't remember) her pancreas and it doesn't look good. Unfortunately, that's all the details I have. My aunt called my mom and that's all she said. So, as of right now, I have no idea what's going on, what the next step is, anything. Needless to say, I'm freaking out. But, I do know that everything is in God's hands. I know that, it's just hard to not be emotional, when it's already been a stressful and emotional weekend, with this on top of it all makes it hard. I don't even know how to pray......for divine healing, for steady hands of the doctors....for wisdom in the doctors, for calm nerves and peace for my family. It's just a tough situation. Please please please pray for my family, my dad and his siblings, everyone involved. It's bound to be a rough week, please keep us in your prayers. Pray that I start getting some sleep too.... with all this emotional roller coasters I've been on lately, I'm crying all the time. Please pray for peaceful and restful sleep........
What a weekend.... God, be in these situations. Heal Grandma, give our family peace and calm nerves. Give the doctors wisdom. Just use this situation as you will, be here. Amen.

This is the prayer of my heart this morning. And Always.

I'm giving You my heart
and all that is within
I lay it all down
for the sake of You my King

I'm giving You my dreams
I'm laying down my rights
I'm giving up my pride
for the promise of new life

I surrender
all to You
All to You
I surrender
all to You
All to You

I'm singing You this song
I'm waiting at the cross
And all the world holds dear
I count it all as loss

For the sake of knowing You
for the glory of Your name
To know the lasting joy
even sharing in Your pain

I surrender
all to You
All to You
I surrender
all to You
All to You

Jesus, help me surrender.....all to you.

screaming colorado

colorado just naturally screams fun in it's name. at my husbands prompting, i'm having to specify that i am indeed very excited to move to colorado. he said the title of my last blog "colo-freakin-rado" could be interpreted as being angry about moving there, as if said through gritted teeth. but, no, i am very very excited to move to colorado. i'm excited to start out our new chapter in our life, to get to know a new city, to get to know his family. so, all that said, i'm very excited. not so excited about the whole moving process (packing, throwing things away, having mat throw my things away behind my back.... ) but once we get there, oh baby, it'll be great!

i have a phone interview on tuesday at the borders in boulder (say that ten times fast....i know i'll mess up answering the phone!!) i went in and talked to my old manager, tiffany, the other day. she told me that she basically told alison (the boulder manager) to hire me, so i'm pretty sure i'll get the job. but, i'm also kinda counting my chicks before they get laid, i guess we'll see what happens on tuesday. mat on the other hand, has high hopes of feeding grandma's dog by hand every day. just kidding.... he has put in his resume at a couple hotels, and 7-11, so we'll see what comes of that. just kidding, no 7-11, but at a couple other high end hotels and resorts (www.stjulien.com pretty snazzy!) i'm not worried about him finding a job at all. he's very good at what he does and he's never been turned down for a job that he's interviewed for.... and that has gone to his head!!! :)

we are having some pictures taken this afternoon. one of our friends is a photography major, and i thought it'd be nice to get some portraits of us taken, even nicer now that we are moving. hopefully we can get some good ones with the mountains in the background to remind us of.....awwww.... montana. mat really wants to take them in the front yard so we don't have to go anywhere, so he doesn't miss the baseball game... you can see where his priorities are! :) i think it'll be fun, i love having pictures taken like that... makes me feel like a movie star.... cheesy! :)

ok, that's all for now. we gotta go get all prettied up for our photo shoot..haha! "ttfn" from mat!

p.s. bring it on three released straight to dvd this week. what a monumental week for those who love the movie trilogy. should be a good one, all those released straight to dvd are, aren't they?

colo-freakin-rado

Here we go, embarking on our next, or first, big adventure. I suppose being married is an adventure in and of itself, so this would be our next big adventure. For those of you who know, and those of you who don't know, Mat and I are moving to Colorado. We have thought and prayed long and hard about it, and we really feel this is the best step for us to take right now. We feel like there are more opportunities for us down there, both in jobs, school and housing (maybe?) We have both applied for a few jobs, but it's hard to apply for them this far out. Oh yeah, you'd probably like to know when we are moving. We are moving Labor Day weekend. Either we'll leave on Sunday, if my parents can come down and help us, or we'll stay and hang out with everyone and leave on Tuesday with just the two of us. It's coming up soon. I'm getting nervous, but only about the possiblity of me driving my own vehicle down there..... And packing everything. This is the first time I've ever had to pack everything and move all in one shot. When I moved to Seattle, it was just short term, so it was like an extended motel stay, I didn't need to have all my belongings. And when we got married and I moved out of mom and dad's house, it was a gradual move, we kept moving things for quite a while after we got married. But this one, we'll move everything all in one shot, all in one U-haul.... It'll be tough. But, hey, come to our garage sale!! It'll be a grand time!! :) We'll pawn our crap off on others..... what a great concept! :) haha!

We are moving to Boulder, we will be staying with Grandma Ev until next Spring probably. We need the time to get on our feet, and Grandma needs the help with the huge house. That will give us time to find good jobs, save some money for a down payment, and hopefully find a nice little house to buy. And we can find a church, some friends, and I can figure out where the heck I'm going when I go places on my own!!!! That's really our news, I can't think of any other details. Just think of us and pray for us in the next month. I'm going to be a basketcase trying to get everything done in this short amount of time. And still be able to see friends and family before we go. It'll be a busy month, but I'm so excited. We are both so excited. I'm excited to live around Mat's family, cousins, aunts and uncles, grandma. It'll be great to see the kids grow up, and for me to get to know his family more. I'm just so flipping excited!! :)

Colo-freakin-rado here we come!!

meant to be

You and I were made to worship,
You and I are called to love,
You and I are forgiven and free.
When you and I embrace surrender,
You and I choose to believe,
You and I will see

how we were meant to be

Before the day
Before the light
Before the world revolved around the sun;
God on high stepped out into time and
wrote the story of his love for everyone.
He has filled our hearts with wonder,
so that we will always remember—

You and I were made to worship,
You and I are called to love,
You and I are forgiven and free.
When you and I embrace surrender,
You and I choose to believe,
You and I will see

how we were meant to be

All we are and all we have is all a gift from God we see
Brought to life,
We open up our lives,
To see the majesty and glory of the King.
He has filled our hearts with wonder,
so that we will always remember—

You and I were made to worship,
You and I are called to love,
You and I are forgiven and free.
When you and I embrace surrender,
You and I choose to believe,
You and I will see

how we were meant to be…

You and I

holy crap, weekends off

Ok, so I took the job at Corporate, which means that, although I will have two jobs, I will work from 9-5, Monday thru Friday. LIKE A NORMAL PERSON..........like a grown-up. Wow, does that mean I'm grown up? So, anyway, in celebration of me having weekends off, here's my list of things I want to do this summer, WEEKEND things I want to do this summer......

• SLEEP IN
• go floating, numerous times.
• sleep in
• go garage sale-ing......never been except to the one in our front yard (yes, it was in our front yard, yet it wasn't ours.....)
• go shopping for my birthday (mysha always takes me shopping for my birthday (the 6th of July, in case you were wondering ;) and we can go this year! yay!)
• go hiking.
• go bike riding. (a lot!)
• sleep in.
• make cards.
• garden.
• sleep in.
• stay out late friday night!
• go floating.
• go to the farmers market.
• go away for a weekend with my husband (shocking, I know, that I want time away with my husband!)
• actually see my husband once in a while!
• sleep in.
• go to baseball games. (with my husband)

well, that's all I can think of right now, I'm just very excited (can you tell?) and, oh, in case you were wondering, we leave for vacation in4 and a half days....... haha!! :) so excited! and i'm totally riding that ride again (did it twice last year.....i know!)

ulcer-vision

So, I think my ulcer is back. Last time he was here, I got in the habit of calling it "the baby"..... so when my tummy hurt, I just said the baby was angry, or when Mat hit me in the tummy, I just told him the baby didn't like it..... I think this time, I'll actually give it a name. Any suggestions? I could call it Sprite, since that all it really seems to like lately..... Arg, I hate being sick like this.....HATE IT! So that's probably what little Sprite looks like....Ain't he cute? I wish he would just go away and stay away.... Hopefully someday.

I watched Britney Spears last night on Dateline..... what made it even better was that Mat was still at work, so I could watch it instead of the basketball game. I really like her. I thought she was kinda trashy sometimes, but I really enjoyed watching the interview last night. She was so sad at parts of it, talking about the dang paparazzi..... I hope she can figure out how to disappear and raise her children out of the spotlight..... away from all the drama and stress that Hollywood is..... Otherwise they may develop ULCERS!!! :) Part of me feels like people like that, celebrities and such, bring that on themselves, that they could walk away from it at any time. And while that is true, most of them are simply doing what they love. No one would ever ask a doctor or any other occupation to walk away from doing what they love, so why should we ask people like that to do the same? Privacy is something everyone deserves, no matter how famous or great they are.....

Wow, I'm so philosphical tonite..... must be Sprite's influence on me..... so I guess he is good for something....

I'm Audi 5000..... lata

thunderstorms and randomness

thunderstorms are really sweet. they've been increasing in frequency lately. and i love it. lightning is great too. i really think i missed my calling as a storm chaser.....i'd love to do that. i'd totally pee my pants every day, but it'd be great. (chasing storms, not peeing my pants every day)
my darling mysha is back from her vacation, oh how i missed her. i really love her and her friendship. and her hugs are awesome!!
so, working two jobs sucks. i like both of my jobs (ok, i love working at love inc, and murdochs is ok) but working so much sucks! and trying to do crystal's wedding invitations with out anymore crises.... that's my main goal.
would you buy cards from "fresh cut greetings"? that's a good business name, right?
i love that my sister is going to cosemetology school...... i've gotten my hair foiled and acrylics put on my nails...... for free. and she did an awesome job at both. it's going to suck when she gets out and it's her source of income so i actually have to pay for things, but it'll at least be cheaper! :)
john tesh radio show..... time to go!
(when it comes on, that means it's 7:00 and time to get the h out of here!!)

new job part 2

Ok, so I got the job at Love INC, actually started on Tuesday. It's a polar opposite from my current job (actually, former job of cashiering--done cashiering yesterday!) there are three phone lines (as opposed to 6+) no music (as opposed to country blaring all the time) and no rude customers...... It's amazing. I really enjoy it, it's a good calm down sort of time for me, very theraputic. And I go home feeling like I've helped people in some other way than merely taking their money, supporting their copenhagen habit, or help them chose new cowboy boots. It's really a good feeling, helping people with real needs, real life things that are urgent, and almost a matter of life or death. Getting your gun safe delivered today just isn't a matter of life or death, no matter what other people think!! So, that's exciting for now.
Now the real dilemma (is that spelled right?!) I have been encouraged, asked, by two people from our corporate office to apply for a part time accounting position over there (at Murdochs). And it wasn't just two random people, but one of the HR directors and one of the heads of the Accounting department. So, I applied, after Mat prodded me. He said even if you get offered the job, you can just turn it down. So, I applied. And, of course, my mind is running a million different directions, figuring out how I'm going to do all that. I'd more than likely have to quit at the store, having three jobs would be just too much. I just hate quitting jobs, ya know? And after three years, it'd be super hard. But, that's my newest excitement, and thought provoking-ness. It's hard, it seems like when it rains it pours...... where was this job 6 months ago?!?! Oh well, we'll see what happens
Mat's family is in town for Katie's graduation, I have babies to hold tonite!!!
I'll post pictures when I get them, I'm so excited!!